Tomorrow I'll be boarding a plan to Seattle for the USATF Club Cross Country Nationals. Club Cross usually isn't a huge deal for individual athletes. The focus is more on the team aspect, from small local running clubs to the professionals like Flagstaff's own McMillan Elite. However, this year, with spots on a national team on the line, this race is drawing more high profile athletes than usual. And I have to admit that looking at the entry list is more than a little intimidating. What I originally thought would be a low-profile chance to run a new 6k PR and meet up with Oiselle women has suddenly become the first serious competition of my post-collegiate career (AND a chance to run a new 6k PR and meet up with Oiselle women and a few other old and new friends). That could be pretty scary, but I've decided I'm not going to let myself think that way. My theme for this week is letting go...
I'm letting go of fear.
I'm letting go of doubt.
I'm letting go of expectations.
I'm letting go of the runner I used to be.
I'm letting go of the people who try to tear me down.
I'm letting go of anger.
I'm letting go of that workout that didn't go so well today.
I'm letting go of the voice in my head that tells me I can't or am not good enough.
And I'm embracing hope.
I'm embracing joy.
I'm embracing uncertainty.
I'm embracing the runner I am now.
And I'm embracing the runner I have yet to become.
I'm embracing all the people who support me.
I'm embracing forgiveness.
I'm embracing the voice in my head that asks "Hey, why not?"
And I'm embracing the "impossible."
On Saturday, I will race in the Oiselle uniform for the 2nd time and this time I'll have some of my Oiselle teammates lining up with me. We're going to go fast and take chances. I hope you're ready, because I sure am!